(*No time for ancy pics- it's Ren, deal*)

So the lock down seems to have been temporairly lifted. And Lissa is being a pain in my ass about choosing who I want to see, so I decide to be clever and leave it open at the Pub. And Valder shows up- only it's the one with the boobs. Jessie tries her damnedest to get punched by putting her brother down, but ultimately forcing me to realize that I really wanted to see Sam. Once I get there, I go all girl on him- and he gives me some bullshit bland generic "sorry but i'll try harder" crap. Fuck that noise!

This is life. There is no try harder. I hate to pull out stupid movie quotes but "Do. Or do not. There is no try!"

And some how me not wanting to be his little expermient makes me the selfish one. He wants to try after 10 years of being (*and i love this nicname*) the Cardboard Kid, and I'm the bitch because I don't want to wait to see if he can do it. I want him whole or not at all. He's not just a fling- if he were then I wouldn't have left. Cause Drake is just a fling and I can take it or leave it.

I will not say the word.

But I think I am.

And if that isn't good enough for him to just be then screw him! I don;t need or want it anyway!